11.10.25

At what point does care turn into stupidity? A part of me, still the biggest and strongest part, wants to talk to her and know how she's doing. That same part kind of hopes for things to be normal between us (whatever that means) at some point in the near future. That same part has these impulses of wanting to text her or even call her. But there is another part of me, one that has been slowly but continuously growing during the last few days, that is starting to think that this is just stupid. It is just stupid to text her. To try to let her know that I think about her (I constantly do). To try to let her know that I care about her. To try to let her know that I'm invested in what she does, what she feels, what she thinks. It is especially stupid to check as soon as I wake up (even in the middle of the night) whether she's texted me or at least read my texts. It is especially stupid to want to call her out of the blue and tell her that I miss her. So stupid. But is it?

How to distinguish boredom from sadness?

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